Brand None

I like the feeling
of two things that
repel each other
trying to make it
work

the wrongness of it
the brute force
the power

but when it connects
and sometimes it does
like a tidal wave
it’s there and gone

it’s fanciful, utterly
to dream about you
because I know
the magnetic force
will never work in
our favor

whisk me away for a weekend
that’s all the time we’ll need
to show me your heart is tender
for me to fall head over feet

time will slow down
as it must when we fall
I’ll pretend that I love you
in the end it means nothing at all

with your arms around me
i’ll lean into the view
16-foot walls of canvas
painted bright arctic blue

and then back to real life
the conversation is short
I’ll miss you entirely, but
you’ll always have my support

I don’t know if it’s the same for you
but you lit me up
and made me feel brand new

one night
earns me four
will he show me his heart
when he opens the door

i’ve never been here
please show me around
i’d like to unlock your secrets
so let’s settle down

Strangers don’t sting like you do
venom that tastes like sugar water
Sure, I’ll bite

We dance together here in my room
I look at you longingly
in anticipation of your exit
I’d like for you to leave

“Look at us”
you said to me.
What does that even mean?

Do I exude the allure of friendship
or do you want to lock eyes
and fall into my comforter

I don’t know what you want
In the meantime, I float

When you told me that if
you could imagine tonight
there’d be no better company than me
Was that romantic?
Or the first brick you lay in a wall
to separate friends from lovers

Why can’t we kiss when you’re inside me
I promise I won’t fall for you
I don’t want to pretend
to climax with you

But I must.

I want to know what stirs you
what makes you cry
but if you can’t even look at me
when our bodies move together
then I don’t want you a moment longer

But I’m doing the same to you
What if we are the same
So content with loneliness that
trying isn’t worth it

Sometimes I see it all with you
The fireworks, the lovemaking
& the pain, the sweet kind

Then there it is,
absolutely nothing

What fuels me
What lights me up
I wanna be on fire forever

What rocks me
What crashes down on me
I want to drown in your love

I’m asking for too much
I know
but if you were the one
you would ask me for it all too

I’m counting down the days now
since you last kissed me
I can’t wrap my head around
why you can’t see me for me

You come into my life unannounced
I tell myself not again
You have me feeling all the doubt
But still, I let you in

I used to let them touch me
after a few drinks it didn’t matter
what they said
or didn’t

Searched for meaning in fingertips
I wanted them on my cheek
they wanted pink flesh
I let them have it

Like a overripe fruit
As I got older, softer even
my exterior grew unsightly
bruised easy, unwanted

My bed is not a fucking grocery store
and I am not a piece of produce

I discontinued the process
to mollify your inability to love
like I do, which is the only way

My heart no longer aches
to drum from someone who
doesn’t want to hear my song

softly killing pleasure
your eyes evade me
i swear i’ve never been wetter
but your evil cannot sustain me